I Seriously Thought It Would Be Okay

I Seriously Thought It Would Be Okay

Again today is Three Kings for most of the Christians and Catholics world wide. This is a day of worship, gifting and taking down the tree. America made it about run-offs, certifications and coups. I called my mother and told her to turn on the TV. My mother is very secretive about her whereabouts because she doesn't want me to scold her on Covid. After enough loud and rapid requests to turn on the TV she explained how she was in Walmart yet again. I think this is the fourth time this week and it is Wednesday. In a small town where people barely have cell phones let alone Twitter, don't wear masks and embrace the Confederacy no one knew what was happening in Washington. But she promptly put all her shit on the nearest shelf and left after being informed. The fear was that if and when these country bumpkins found out the Capitol was seized by their own kind they would begin to burn crosses on her lawn. I mean we knew it would be a strange day but we expected things to go okay. The Dems would turn Georgia blue. Pence would have no choice but to accept the college votes. The trees would pile up on the curbs. But no a throng of idiots had to just turn things upside down and storm the Capitol. All week I have been slightly ashamed of my language and American aura. Now I am glad I bought all my normal grocery so I can just stay home. Friday I have a dentist appointment but my mouth will be open for that. Saturday is the end of days as numbers keep rising so we go to Korea town for Asian groceries. I speak no languages there. I do not want to discuss vagabonds sitting in Nancy Pelosi's office  or spinning around in the chair on the Dais. I do not want to know that my people, my countrymen were complicit in killing a woman. I do not want to believe that America actually let this happen. At nightfall when gifts should be exchanged under the North Star I do not want to know that three branches of militarized officers will descend on the Capitol to smoke out the occupants incited by our President. Above all I do not want to accept that we have fourteen more days of the goon that started all of this. I thought it would be okay. It is not okay. America is not okay. We are not okay. I am not okay.